Margaret Sugar's Site

I'm enjoying spending these precious days and nites with Margie, especially sleeping with her. She often wakes up around 3:30am and we talk about life and travel and love and death, or just hold hands and watch the crescent moon move across the sky. Today we got up around 8am and while Peter was out for a short hike with Tait, I cooked Margie some scrambled eggs, steak (that's what she wanted!) and some toast, which she ate most of! She hasn't been experiencing any nausea or pain lately, which is a blessing. She keeps up with her medication routine, keeping wonderful detailed notes on what she takes and when. She is still very much in charge, although she did comment to me 'I'm not in control anymore'. I do get the feeling she's got one foot in this world and one in the next. She is showing me how to face death without fear ('fear stops us from being our best' she says) and how to be totally present in this moment. She said earlier this afternoon that she is still very interested in her friends and what's going on in the world, but feels she is lacking in energy to 'be entertaining'. Margie seems to have good energy for a couple hours, and then enjoys a replenishing rest. Right now, she and Peter are writing her obituary, talking about her colorful life history and interests. And then Margie will have another rest before her friend arrives to visit at 3pm. She loves to visit and talk on the phone, but does tire easily. She mentioned yesterday that she's not entirely comfortable being the center of attention - of course, she wants to hear about YOUR life, as usual. I guess some things don't change!  :-)  Love to you all, who are reading this.  Jill